The Words Keep Coming Out, They Don't Care if They're Naked
I've been in a bit of ,what i consider to be, a writers rut. As i'm sure many bloggers go through this, i just can't help but feel like, who cares about what im doing in my daily life or what i have to say. What i need to remember that there are many bloggers that I follow on a daily basis and actually do care about what they're doing or wearing that day. I do care what they have to say; thoughts, fears, hopes and dreams. Though they may seem like celebrities of the internet, its a great feeling to know how relatable they are and thats what i want to be for my readers.
Part of why i've been feeling so uninspired is because its been raining just about every day for the last month! No joke, there has been a ton of flooding in the surrounding areas and many families have lost their homes. My thoughts are with you. I feel like I almost know what its like to live in the UK!
My curly haired babes know what its like to finish getting yourself ready only to discover its raining. You just can't get any decent photos when humidity, rain and curly hair are in the mix.
I am so affected by the weather that from day to day I feel like a different person. Not to mention that it's on top of my anxiety. My anxiety isn't exactly something i've gone into on the blog because I don't want to seem like a downer, but its a big part of my life and i've decided to share with you the ins and outs, the good and the bad of Chelsea. I think ive always had mild anxiety, growing up as an overweight child, well let's just say, kids can be cruel. As i got into my late teens early twenties, it all started to get worse, to the point where i was lying to people about what i was doing. For example, telling people im out looking for a job and instead just hanging out at the mall for a few hours and going home. Not because I didn't want to but because it felt like a physical force field not allowing me to talk to the store clerks. It wasnt until last June that I decided to get some help and start taking medication. I don't see it as an easy way out, I see it as a helping tool in order to make me feel like a capable human being. It's been amazing so far, i feel at least 80% better than i have over the last few years. Anyone thats going through anxiety or depression, know you're not alone and that if you ever need to talk, you have an ear here.